Please don’t tell me to get on meds, I’m in no position to do so at the moment otherwise I would go on meds again in a heartbeat.
I’m pretty sure I’m not hypomanic or depressed, but I’ve been irritable as hell for quite some time now. The tiniest things set me off and I become sarcastic and snippy. My mom doesn’t understand this and no matter how many times I try to explain it to her, she brushes me off and tells me to go read my bible. (Cue even more irritability).
She will constantly make stupid comments then wonder why it sets me off. Not “stupid” as in I’m just being a bitch, stupid as in she insults me then plays it off as a joke. Which isn’t a great idea when I’m already irritable. I have tried my best to be patient with her and not to snap at her, but it’s really damn hard when the tiniest inconvenience frustrates me to the point of wanting to cry.
Usually I’m a very calm person and not much can upset me, but when these bouts of irritability hit me it’s like I know what’s going on but I can’t stop it. It just gets worse and worse. It’s gotten to the point where I’m snappy at my friends which I never am, as well as kind of ignoring my girlfriend. I’m lucky that she understands my disorder, but I also don’t want her to feel like I’m just using her because I do love her. I love her so much.
My girlfriend and I are fine, but my friends and family are all tiptoeing around me. I know it’s my own fault but so far nothing I do to try controlling the irritability is working. Whenever I move to another room for some space and someone invades that I get pissed off. If I listen to music and someone tells me to stop being antisocial I snap. I hate feeling like this because I know what’s going on but I can’t stop it.
Literally any advice is welcome